小成坐在沙发上专心致志地看电视,小挪歪在他旁边,怀里抱着跟她形影不离的心爱猫咪。小挪百无聊赖地用手指卷着她长长的头发, 看了一眼小成:“不是答应我开车去海边的吗?”
小成往电视机前凑了凑身子:“我也不知道球赛临时改成今天了啊。”
小挪揪了揪自己的头发:“可是你答应过我的,说话老不算数。” 猫咪在她怀里嗖地直起身子,瞪着无辜的绿色大眼睛来回打量。
小成皱了下眉:“我也不想这样啊。赶明去不就成了。”
小挪站起身,拽过被小成压住的裙角,抱着猫咪走进厨房。乒乓一声响。
小成没动窝, 伸手把音量按大。乒乓又一声响,绿色的音量格相应往上跳。反复几次,小成终于失去耐心,从沙发上跳起来。
厨房里小挪披着乱蓬蓬的头发,耸着肩膀站在在洗碗池边,绿色长裙拖在地上,浸在一洼水里,旁边一些碗的碎片。小成气的交叉了胳膊站在门边:“又来了!至于嘛,不就晚去一天。”
小挪哽咽着转过身来:“你为什么说话总是不算数呢?对我说的话永远记不住。”她的嘴唇抖抖索索地吸吮着指头,一滴圆圆的鲜红血滴挂在纤细的手腕上。
“又是这套。“ 小成一把抓过冰箱上的车钥匙,“我去朋友家看球了。”
小挪嚎啕大哭起来,光脚踏过碎片,孩子样地伸出手臂:“别走!别离开我!”
轰然发动的车声里,小挪滑坐在地上,裙子象一朵晒蔫了的荷叶,撑着哭的喘不过气的柔弱花茎。身边的猫咪急的跳来跳去,爪子扑打着她的裙裾。
若干天后,小成和小挪在海边散步。小成揽着她的肩,抚摸着她顺顺溜溜,直到腰际的长发:“你要是一直这么乖多好。”
小挪低低嗯了一声:“可是那就不是我了。”
小成笑着说:“好,就一个月闹腾一回吧。”
小挪从他的肩上仰起脸:“只要你答应我别离开我。”
小成又笑:“呵呵,以后可不敢随便答应你事了。”
小挪停住脚步,认真地看着他的眼睛问:“怎么才能让你说话算数呢?”
小成把脸埋在小挪的发间, 长长吸了一口芳香的气息:“喜欢你的长发,用它来换吧。”
若干天后,小挪送给小成一个精心包装的礼物盒:“我用这个换你真正的誓言。”小成笑着打开来,一根长长的黑色辫子,打了几个弯,蛇一样盘在盒底。小成惊骇地抬起头,一把抓下小挪戴着的那顶滑稽帽子。小挪没有动弹,烛光下的大眼睛闪动着热烈期待的光,青青的头皮上罩着一圈同样希望的光辉。小成愣了半天,咬了牙说:“你真是疯了。”
很久很久以后。头发长到耳际的小挪丢失了她心爱的猫咪。
小真来的时候,小挪乱七八糟的房间里,Cranberries的歌声咬了重重的鼻音在反复回荡。小挪来回走动着,瞪着失神的眼睛,抓扯着短短的头发,疯了一样自言自语:“猫咪说过不离开我的。他说过的。他答应的。他答应过的啊。”
小真抱住她的时候,觉得猫咪好象就藏在她的体内。她软软的骨头打着抖颤,可是四只爪子飞扬着,疯狂踢打着,喊叫着,抓挠着。小真忍着痛把她紧紧箍在怀里。
小挪累了,倦了,她大大的眼睛闭上,又使着劲地缓缓张开,小真微笑的脸晃在眼前。闭上,再张开,他笑笑的脸还在眼前。
长长的梦魇之后,小挪睁开眼睛,并立刻慌张地四处寻找。还是在小真的怀抱里。小真柔软的嘴唇贴上她光滑的前额,细心整理着她短短的头发:“别怕。我发誓,永不离开。”
"Promises" (Cranberries)
You'd better believe I'm coming
You'd better believe what I say
You'd better hold on to your promises
Because you bet you'll get what you deserve.
She's going to leave him over
She's going take her love away
So much for your eternal vows, well
It does not matter anyway.
Why can't you stay
Here a while
Stay here awhile
Stay with me.
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
All the promises we made
Promises we made
All the meaningless and empty words I broke
Broke broooke
Oh oh oh oh oh
All the promises we broke
Promises we broke
All the meaningless and empty words I spoke
Spoke spooooke
What of all the things that you taught me
What of all the things that you'd say
What of all your prophetic preaching
You're just throwing it all away
Maybe we should burn the house down
Have ourselves another fight
Leave the cobwebs in the closet
'Cause tearing them out is just not right
Why can't you stay
Here awhile
Stay here awhile
Stay with me
Oh oh oh oh oh
All the promises we made
Promises we made
All the meaningless and empty words I prayed
Prayed praaaayed
Oh oh oh oh oh
All the promises we broke
Promises we broke
All the meaningless and empty words I spoke
Spoke Spooooke
Oh oh oh oh oh
All the promises we made
Promises we made
All the meaningless and empty words I prayed
Prayed praaaayed
Oh oh oh oh oh
All the promises we broke
Promises we broke
All the meaningless and empty words I spoke
Spoke Spooooke
Oh hey oh hey oh hey ...